>>6019 I need money dude

>>6020 There are plenty ways to get money that are much more healthy than coding. Better live poorer than become a coder.

>>6023 I have abandoned the possibility of being healthy. Let me code!

>>6019 i know a guy who's a programmer of some kind. he has a cute librarian gf and he does marathon running.

>>6045 He's not mentally healthy I swear

For God's sake stop being so gross

>>5952 when you think you are done, take a (prolonged) deep breath but without moving your thorax (holding the stomach in place). this will put some pressure on your bladder, specially if you are sitting

just dont overdo it or you might pass out while peeing

writers barely disguised fetish

Don't push it. You can cause damage holding it in too long.

>>5887 i think you've made a very rational conclusion anon. don't get me wrong i surely appreciate my online friends, but having people to spend time with IRL is good for the soul. it's nice to actually go OUT and spend time with friends even if it's just hitting up a Denny's and chatting. i think the nature of internet friendships makes them less committal than IRL ones, and that's okay. i've had many internet friends come and go, and i've came and gone from the lives of others too. it's still fun to appreciate the good times i've had with them even if we don't really hang out much anymore. the beauty of life is its impermanence! i'm rooting for you anon. i hope your adventures into the real world bear fruit. ganbatte!

>>5887 It feels horrible once you have that realization because you have already put so much hope into those relationships that it's hard to understand that they're not real. These people might as well not exist, I could delete all my accounts now and I'll never hear from them again. While I still run into my childhood friends who I haven't hung out in over a decade, not that I can connect with them or anything, I think I had deeper connections with online friends, but they're not sustainable which hurts even more.

I don't have such a negative approach to it. I feel like friendships in general, whether online or IRL, are just as much of something as you make them to be. Maybe I am biased from my own experiences with friendships, but despite the ease of leaving everyone online behind, "real" people can hurt you more. Being rejected by them, or if plans don't work out, it can affect one's mood way more. I usually used to be advoidant because of it and at some point ended up just not having any irl friends at all, if I could ever consider them such. It seemed like the people I was close with online genuinely cared about me. They still do, and we're still friends. Some of which are friendships that are almost 10 years, and the most consistent ones being around 6-7 years. I never needed much daily interaction, so I'm happy with what I have, and to everyone I'm not friends with anymore, I hope they still think back about the brief duration we had fun together and reminisce sometimes. The fleetingness of internet friendships can be a blessing too, if you're willing to see it that way. I feel like a reject in everything, and I tend to isolate a lot and don't have the energy to text anyone back for long periods of time, and with no one being able to ring my bell and interrupt my process of recharging, it's kind of.. peaceful. But I definitely don't want to disagree; having IRL friends is good and can be a very enjoyable experience if you have the right people around you.  I hope life treats you kindly and things work out the way you want it to be.

The more I have genuine fulfilling conversations/relationships IRL, the less I want them online. They just feel more ... Real. Even if it's heartbreaking and painful, it's the good type of pain. Makes you feel more alive. You can actually see their facial expressions, touch them, see them, live in the moment. Everyone online is fake/bot/manipulative/corporate, it's so soulless. The erosion of real life social environments and public spaces has caused so much suffering. Nobody likes online dating, it sucks. Nobody wants to be on a app to "make friends." It's completely illogical to our biology and our psychology. We use to make friends through real life activities and events. We use to go out and just converse with people. What the hell happened? Why is it so hard now? Why is it so much more socially unacceptable and awkward? Was it always this way? What the hell do people do? Venture on luck that they will just click with people by being at exactly the right place and exactly the right time? Just texting back and forth with each other like dopamine fried zombies? I don't want online friends. They suck. I just want better real life social environments where I feel I can actually feel like I am doing something. Where I feel like I can grow and get better at something and vice versa towards the person across from me. Not something like alcohol, video games, consumption, or drugs - degeneracy, but somewhere I can improve. Somewhere I can get better. But not like a solitude hobby like the gym, more like a co-op hobby. I don't know, it's all very confusing. And everything feels tribal, forced, faked, artificial, - nothing feels real.

>>5965 you are looking for "competition". Play sports.

I'm ready

>>5989 Neco please calm down

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA This is hard on me really why I am so weak in the face of Evil is there no hope for lost soul

>>6210 ganbatte! you can do it! don't let Evil overcome you!

>>6211 HHHHHIIKAAAAAAAAARRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN I shall stand indeed! For a little longer! I will not give just that easily!

>>5927 i would go for golf mk6

>>5931 but newer one, first models had issues with chain iirc

also hikari, should I get a car before a flat positive fortune -> yes

>>5910 my what

>>5934 your passport, sir

i have! it had an interesting texture to say the least

>>5802 i do love chocolate... however i'm not much of a normal cake guy. i do love chocolate pie or ice cream tho! >>5831 it is interesting, but super good! it's very cheap and easy to make as well. can't go wrong with it. i've even done alcoholic floats with my friends.

very hungry now ;-;

My mom hates them but they're great

haven't had a root beer float in ages, but they're nice I drink a lot of root beer since I noticed I feel better when I don't drink Coke for whatever reason, and root beer doesn't do the same thing to me I eat a bunch of sweet stuff but haven't had a proper dessert in a while, I'll mostly just have hot chocolate with some kind of sweet cookie/biscuit to dip in.

>>5825 >so obviously wrong. i'm sorry to break it on you but that basically says you're a midwit. your opinion is only worthy of being utterly discarded and thrown into a garbage bin. provide argumentation. guys, just once in your life, prove your point by an argument. but all you can you do is >obvious this is so mediocre i wonder why you're not ashamed of speaking

>>5826 interesting how i explained why it seems so obviously wrong to me before that, aka my "argument", yet you focus on this final exclamation. nevermind your nitpicking, do you seriously think gooning is on the same level as a productive hobby like reading or language learning or boxing?

>>5826 yknow what, i am being rude. i apologize. i'm hangry i think. i do not wish to be mean, we are supposed to be comfy here. i just think your advice was counterproductive at best, destructive at worst. i will be more cordial. i want everyone to succeed and find fulfillment and it hurts my heart to see people in such sadness, which is why i am passionate about this.

>>5827 >do you seriously think gooning is on the same level as a productive hobby like reading or language learning or boxing no and i'm not even that anon you were talking to. and no, your post didn't have any argumentation, just a wordy reiteration of your qualia. i think gooning is a vain attempt to find satisfaction where it isn't. i do not think lifting in itself is fundamentally different from gooning, but in long term it seems to be much less likely to cause such massive amounts of frustration as gooning does. besides, it seems physical exercise is better suited for maintaining health than torturing your little friend. anyway, my experience is that neither gooning nor working out provided me with satisfaction i sought, but working out was still much better. gooning is followed by hard withdrawals and it seems to have affected me in the long run. i have been opposing it for more than a year and i'm still barely halfway through. it doesn't even pleasure me anymore. it's like a hard drug. no such thing ever happened with working out. but that's just my experience.

>>5827 that's another anonymous. the difference between feelings and thoughts is that you don't control feelings. I don't know how else to say this, but you have too many prejudices and fears. do you also think masturbation will cause you to grow hair on your palms? I'm making an assumption here, but you are replying even when it seems to frustrate you a little, so I'm not sure about the fulfillment seeking. I guess if you claim everything a person does is ultimately motivated by satisfaction then yes, but at that point the word becomes useless. the mental health... recommending habits to a regular person sounds like ritualized repression >well there's nothing you can do about it, might as well rot in your room and jerk off all day teehee nobody said that (although, if they like that who am I so say they are rotting?), but the internet has decided that the default answer to "I don't like X" is "you should try doing Y and Z, which you also don't like - and be happy about it". there are no panaceas, and sometimes things just are. I knew a guy that was addicted to crack, but I have never met anyone addicted to playing the oboe, so I can guess which one ranks better on the fulfillment metric that one is a joke >>5829 notice how we manage to feel bad about feeling good. you can try to outrun your emotions but a healthy brain will always find opportunities to pass you the bill so to speak. now, I'm not saying that you shouldn't feel bad about feeling good, I'm just saying that it happens

>>5782 the word meaning would become pointless if you tried to apply it to an object like a rock, the same is true for the simple forms of life. the unicellular organism doesn't have a reason to do what it does, it just does (be it metabolize, move, mutate, die or whatever else). for the sake of the discussion we were assuming until now there was a subject, an extra-material consciousness so to speak if there is no subject to begin with, then it becomes even more clear that meaning and meaninglessness are concepts that don't apply to life

Why do you call me schizo when I give you all the Answers? You suffer because Evil has not been overcome. Rise you head and join the Fight!

>>5756 The cities remind me of the procedural generation towns in the old total war games

I've never had a job. I've never had a license to drive either. I'm alone though. I've been wanting to kill myself for longer than I can remember.

>>5785 i mean it in a loving way schizochama. unless you prefer gnostichama? >>5788 i'm sorry to hear that anon. although i know words from an anonymous image board won't do much i do believe everyone, including you, can find a life they enjoy. i hope you keep living and keep trying.

Wut the fuck are you doing on Hikari3? You should be making a living on this shit

>>5680 What is this face at bottom picture called? Feels so bad to loose my memory so brutally to be honest.

>>5681 >What is this face at bottom picture called? Yao Ming "Bitch, Please"

This is so cool. How did you do it?

You should submit to Black Fog Zine or the Lainzine.

hmm... i guess it would be in the woods. cozied up alone by the fire at dusk. no signs of humanity- no cars or planes in the distance. here i feel at peace. it's as if i am not even an entity in itself, simply a dissociated observer woven into the world around me. quiet summer fields in the afternoon also give me this feeling, particularly fields of flower or grass. nothing but the wind blowing against me to prove i'm even there. gives me a feeling of interconnectedness i have not felt anywhere in civilization. if not there, then it would be cozy quiet evenings wrapped up with someone i love. although it's been too long since i've experienced this.

Anywhere when it's under a tree, I love the sound of rustling leaves

ever since i was a kid i will say "i want to go home" over and over to myself when im distressed and want to feel safe, but home was never safe so i don't know what i mean.

>>5799 same as you, my go to stressless place is my home

>>5630 I am not sure now. I guess as a child it was 2009-2016 youtube. Also playing my DS helped me feel safe despite the rough childhood that I had. As an adult, I cling desperately to the MVs that I watch, but that time has already passed. It's not the 2000s anymore. My own family brought me to my lowest point less than 2 years ago, and I can't exactly exist in a digital landscape like this.