>>11505 Ohnoes. Drink some chicken soup or something. Feel better soon.

>>11507 Thanks, I've already taken the pills that should theoretically help, so we're living

>>11505 It is that time of year, almost everyone I know is getting sick.

>>11516 I rarely get sick, and I rarely go outside either. The last time I was so sick was probably about a year and a half ago.yesterday I spent the whole day under a blanket with a temperature of 38.5 today it is better

When I was younger, I took an antidepressant and an antipsychotic at the same time. I understand what you mean by emotions being suppressed. I actually ended up doing the same thing, deciding that I'd rather feel too much than not feel anything. It was a very rough time afterwards and I made a lot of bad and impulsive decisions. It took me quite a few years to get it together. Medication is not something you are meant to depend on and take forever, it's a means of stabilizing you as a short-to-mid term solution. You are in charge of your own mental health and it's up to you to improve your environment and your mindset and your habits in a way that develops long-term improvement. That's what I told myself at least, and it worked quite well. Went from a self-harming, angry, depressed, manipulative, stoner, NEET to a pretty well functioning member of society with healthy habits and a real future ahead of me. Although it took some time and a lot of struggle.

>>6 Thanks for the response yay it’s good to hear from someone who feels like they’ve come out the other side because that feels a little impossible right now. Like i know logically meds are supposed to be temporary and that i’m supposed to be working on myself and my environment and all but when youre in it it just feels like theres rly no way out,,,,, Impulsive decisions terrify me the most and i already feel that pull again. Part of me knows im probably going to fuck some things up now that i’m off them but i can’t go back i rlly can’t bleh How long did it take you to actually stabilize without the meds? Like was there a point where you could feel things normally? and what kind of things did you change about your environment and habits? Guess i’m trying to figure out what that even looks like when everything feels so overwhelming

Thinking about getting into Sci-Fi novels. Which ones do you hikarin recommend? I enjoy things like Warhammer 40k, but I don't know much about the pioneers or well established authors of the genre.

This one book i found that is about some really detailed medical problems some people had in the past, mostly really stupid people such as a guy that swallowed 50 knives for fun. I take this book with me sometimes and i show it to people just to disgust them.

I have been reading a lot more lately, which is good. I am almost finished with Yukio Mishima's Sea of Fertility series. It's nothing short of beautiful. I am not the same person after reading Runaway Horses. Temple of Dawn piqued my interest in Buddhism, so I checked out a book titled "Essence of Buddhism" by Traleg Rinpoche from my library. It's a good introduction, and I'd like to read into Buddhism further. I enjoy political science but have read only little about it. If anyone has recommendations about anything (I'm interested in Mao or Showa Japan) I'd be grateful. >>374 It's not a novel, but a rather touching short story. "The Dandelion Girl" by Robert F. Young. I haven't read it yet but I have "When Sleepers Awake" by H. G. Wells on my list, so I'll throw that out there.

>>374 >I don't know much about the pioneers or well established authors of the genre. This is going to sound weird, but Tolkien was an inflection point for science-fiction just as he was for fantasy. Much like in the fantasy genre, authors before Tolkien focused on exploring an idea or making a point rather than building an open world just for the sake of doing it. So bear in mind that those pioneers were nothing like 40k or really any of the modern sci-fi franchises, which have more in common with Tolkien than with Phillip K. Dick and such. H. G. Wells is a good starting point, I read almost a third of his bibliography when I was in high school and from what I remember, I liked his earlier work from "The Time Machine" to "Kipps", his later stuff was badly written, preachy and so optimistic and utopian that I couldn't take it seriously. I think it is completely valid to prefer modern, Tolkien influenced sci-fi over the old guys, so don't feel obligated to read Asimov or Wells if you don't like them.

>>378 Noted. Thanks for the analysis. I do prefer the worldbuilding for the sake of worldbuilding, I enjoy getting invested into and enthralled by a fantasy or sci-fi world. Honestly, using 40k as an example, I really prefer the idea of the galaxy that 40k builds more than I enjoy any specific storyline within the galaxy. The larger framework in which the authors use to lay out specific stories. Do you have any recommendations for authors that do good worldbuilding?

>>11503 That's pretty cool hikarin. What do you plan on doing with your library?

I can only define 2025 so far as Pre-My-Cat-Died and Post-My-Cat-Died. Whole year was basically a daze. I hope next year there is less sick feline deaths.

>>11480 italy, spain, france so the mediterranean It was awesome :p

>>11506 Back up stuff, old cartoons, video games, personal files, e-books, pretty much everything I see value in, if the internet goes dark in the following years, I'm going to be ready.

>>11521 Are you actually expecting the internet to go dark? Or is it more of just a safeguard/hobby.

>>11169 punk rock, emo/screamo, early metalcore, post hardcore, powerelectronics, new wave, noise rock, sludge metal, doom metal

>>11174 i dont listen to breakcore i listen to jungle

>>11282 care to drop some recs?

japanoise PSF psych rock shoegaze the fucking les rallizes denudes etc

Hard techno and electronic subgenres of all kinds from things like uptempo, splittercore, J-core, Gabber, speedcore, industrial and hard trance but i could name many more

>>11509 There's no file previews on Canvas for some reason. It shows the file name at least but I wasn't paying attention. Also I realized instantly and resubmitted it. >>11501 Right after resubmitting a made a comment that the 1st submission was on accident >>11504 I can probably make better money as a ladyboy prostitute than if I were to graduate as a Computer Science major....

>>11510 >Right after resubmitting a made a comment that the 1st submission was on accident Hopefully for your sake he just ignored it then.

>>11511 There is a chance he doesn't check it too since the latest submission if probably the only one that matters and professors have a lot of other work to grade, though I'm also worried the comment I made will also make him curious

cooked … i pray for u

If you download images like this you have to segregate. Canvas submissions folder and then gay ladyboy trap folder. It works.

>>11465 What does this mean?

>>11468 we need to know more about how this happened hikarin

>>11489 Everything before that was a blur. The last time I remembered was when I met Kyubey.

>>11468 Just balls?

>>11517 i thought it was impossible, but it really happened.

kuuz broken

Current site layout really reminds me of ichan.net back in my day. Or was it .org?

>>1067 Do you mean iichan? It was a .net I think. >back in my day oldbie

https://web.archive.org/web/20140204065556/http://ichan.net/ And the other remnants of nekoarc/rockstararmy.

>>1069 Never heard of this one before, looks pretty nice actually

Hello, as promised I tried drew to draw fanart. It's not very good, but at least I tried. https://ib.crba.dedyn.io/mod.php?/crba/res/189

>>11487 I think you may have posted the wrong link hikarin. It's asking me to log in to your mod panel

>>11492 Sorry, here's the correct link: https://ib.crba.dedyn.io/crba/res/189

>>11494 Thank you. It is a bit rough haha, but I appreciate your effort and hope you continue improving!

>>11486 looking forward to the update soon >>11476 and just to let you know, you're not in a dream actually. the fact that you were able to code up your own website and imageboard and set up a video archive proves that you're awake. if you were actually dreaming, i wouldn't be able to see those websites get made and you wouldn't notice the theme change on this hikari board.

>>98 Draw her getting an education

This is some very nice scenery, I hope you feel great soon

You're on my naughty list now naughty hikarin

>>11426 What should I even be thankful for?!

>>11438 There is lots to be thankful for. You are alive and well, likely in a developed country. You are able to experience life with its many ups and downs and make it into what you want. You're open to good food and fellowship and fulfillment, and the journey to find those things. No blackpilling on my hikarinchan.

>>11439 Maybe if everyone will feed me, be my company, and get me a good job

i dont live in the us but i like mashed potatoes and i think rabbit is thanksgiving food? and im thankful for my cat this year ! raspberry walked on my keyboard when i was on this site once, so i think that makes her a hikarin >>11439 are you a mother lol

>>11490 Mashed potatoes are good. Rabbit isn't usually a Thanksgiving food, no. Generally for meat it is turkey especially, but also ham. However, you can make Thanksgiving into whatever you want it to be! My family often makes ribs or brisket alongside normal Thanksgiving foods. I think a coworker actually did make rabbit now that I think about it. Never have had rabbit myself but really want to try it. and no I'm not a mother nor a woman

claiming this board as MY OWN! BOW DOWN!

>>2 NEVER

>>10880 Join an anime club!

>>10880 It's too hard atp almost everyone's performative, I'm struggling with this too What're your interests hikarin

Honestly im lucky im just surrounded with people like me somehow, idk tho i just see someone drawing or looking at a charater i know and just like.. come up to them- or if i think they might be nice. (I only come up to people i see often tho so dont think im brave or sum)

>>10880 I consider it impossible considering the circumstances, but who knows, yours might be different.

>> 11458 what... no... how could this be...

>>11458 HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH???? WHAT THE HECK???????????

>>11459 >>11460 You see, a cookie is sweet like a womans VAGINA. The cookies crumbs are akin to droplets of pussy juice, delicious like nectar. This is why tetos pussy = cookie. What a tasty treat.

>>11462 what about having teto's actual cookies mixed with love nectar instead? you get twice the good taste that way.

>>11463 It's weird how I know which anime you're referencing, yet I've never seen it.

>>1797 Shut up gay loser nerd who can barely get ethernet to work on a virtual machine

Here's me browsing Syrno's site >>1798 Haven't looked into it in a while and wanted to take a peek. It does not run very well lol. Works well enough for a testing environment or as a way to run very old software incompatible with newer versions I guess. Disappointing to see that over 29 years of development it is still only functional for niche cases. >>1799 You will be groped for your crimes. I did get the ethernet to work thank you very much.

>>1800 grope me to the fullest extent of the law

Use ReactOS as a daily driver >>1801 This nyagan is part of the gay mafia

can it run the zig compiler for windows? I have a drive with windows that I use when I can't trust cross-compilation but windows 11 doesn't support this machine

>>10188 wowa, whats next? 2026?

>>11419 2026 is canceled, sorry. We're skipping right to 2027.

>>11441 Maybe this is a good thing because I hate this decade, although I don't expect the 2030s to be much better

>>11441 Uwaa! that means ill be much older next year

>>11456 Please continue to stay young

>>1774

>>1774 this post gallaghed the everliving shit out of >>1775 and >>1776 GNARF

>>1752 "The beauty of Linux is that most distros are reskins of debian/ubuntu"

>>1779 Not what I said, and also false. The beauty of Linux is that distros have a lot more in common with each other than most people realize. I just happened to use Debian and Ubuntu as an example, because I was talking about Mint. I'm sure most things you learn in the Debian side of Linux could be applied in the Arch or Gentoo side of Linux, etc etc. It's all Linux anyway. >>1772 >But the way I see it is that with source-based distros you at least have a fighting chance so to speak, as long as you know what you are doing. With binary-based distros, if something breaks or doesn't work, you are pretty much cooked. What do you mean by "fighting chance"? It's not like there aren't workarounds for things in binary- based distros, and some break less often than others. I'd much rather have a system that is stable and somewhat hard to fix than a system that breaks often but is easy to fix. >Can I recommend Debian to a newcomer when I know that writing a .ebuild is significantly easier than writing a Debian package? Can I recommend either when I know that both these things are relatively complex technical tasks? Newcomers, and even some tech-savvy users don't write their own packages. In fact most people don't even need to do that. Why should that be considered? >I don't have experience running binaries made for Windows on Linux, but I have a vague idea of the whole stack being finicky, fragile and error prone - it has to be, because of how both X11 and Wayland work. It isn't. In my experience, at least on X11, a lot of things just work with vanilla Wine, and setting up Lutris or Heroic with GEProton, or even running stuff through Steam isn't complicated. Of course it's not perfect, but don't forget that you're trying to run a binary made for a whole different OS.

>>1795 >Newcomers, and even some tech-savvy users don't write their own packages. In fact most people don't even need to do that. Why should that be considered? That's what I was thinking. I've been a casual Linux user for years (I've used debian, arch, and fedora based distros) but I have never once written my own package nor have I needed to. Linux is quite easy for the casual user as long as they have a basic understanding of how computers work, and even then the new fancy immutable distros that use flatpaks are so easy my grandmother could figure it out.

thank you very gozaimasu. i am the hikarin who asked :3

Sadly hikarin I have no skillz in this area but best of luck to you!

this is how it looks

draw Yuno Gasai next onegai

cuteee :DD

I will share a list of Intro/Transition to Proof resources: >Textbooks Journey into Mathematics: An Introduction to Proofs - Joseph J. Rotman Proof, Logic, and Conjecture: The Mathematician's Toolbox - Robert S. Wolf Bridge to Abstract Mathematics: Mathematical Proof and Structures - Ronald P. Morash Alice in Numberland: A Students’ Guide to the Enjoyment of Higher Mathematics - John Baylis, Rod Haggarty >Lecture Notes A Primer for Logic and Proof - Holly P. Hirst and Jeffry L. Hirst http://www.appstate.edu/~hirstjl/primer/hirst.pdf Modicum Mathematicum: A Swath Through The Basic Language Of Abstract Math - Paolo Aluffi https://math.hawaii.edu/~pavel/Aluffi_notes_321_Modicum.pdf Proof, Sets, and Logic - M. Randall Holmes https://randall-holmes.github.io/proofsetslogic.pdf Basic Concepts of Mathematics - Elias Zakon http://www.trillia.com/zakon1.html

>>330 hi math-anon. do you have any book recs for real variables that aren't rudin? it's extremely terse and dry and doesn't really motivate much it covers so i want to supplement it i was thinking of going through apostol or abbot but neither seem to cover lebesgue theory or multivariable functions as far as i know

Does any anon know some resources for learning biology ?

>>371 what level of biology?

>>371 Depends on what you're looking for, but OpenStax textbooks are always a good place to start. https://openstax.org/subjects/science They have highschool level bio, college level bio, and microbiology textbooks available for free.

I love it~

i love my little desktop miku sadly it seems shimejis are a dying art.

>>1599 i have just realized shimeji simulation is a manga series. seems i missed the point

yesss!! i love that mangaka’s art!!!!!

Yesssss big fan my laptop desktop wallpapers are all tsukumizu drawings Wondering if there will be a new manga

I learned to drive manual when I was 16 and never touched a car again because walking or taking a bus is easier. I enjoy those 15 minutes of doing nothing and just looking at the city.

>>11358 move to some place on the east coast. more towns there have mixed use zoning so you wouldn't have to drive as much as you would elsewhere

>>11370 What if I'm checked out?

it is bad in theory, but think about it, all the pain about insurance, taxes, finding the car, the ac not working. If you have a job within walking distance, I say you're fine

>>11395 Also car hijacking, car vandalism, parking fees, planned obsolescence with cryptic maintenance knowledge for exactly your car model and the corresponding rip-offs for maintenance and repair

>>114 Yes, I know English.

>>325 Do you really?

English is my second language. Learned Japanese last year for 1 month, probably reaching a level slightly under N5 level. Had to stop due to uni entrance exams, now I`m majoring at Philosophy and want to return to nihongo, though I'll probably learn Deutsch語 since it's fits better for my context and seems cooler than Furansu語. >>158 Your writing is comprehensive so you're doing quite well, in my humble opinion. I'm curious though, what are the other languages you know? (Btw, are you still here, hikarin?)

I’m a native speaker of Greek and learned English since i was young, now im trying to improve my Spanish and learn Russian for my Armenian friend (and for myself ofc)

>>114 I had to learn 3 languages but the one I really had chose to learn is Japanese. I don't have any time for VNs, anime, and games though. Man...

>>1062 I was able to upload a 17.83 MB file so I'm not sure what happened

this is a cool image op

What's keeping you up? Do you normally have trouble sleeping?

>>11435 don't know what exactly is keeping me up, i just cannot sleep, although sometimes, when i do manage to go to sleep, i'll wake up too shortly after (for a grand total of like 2 hours of sleep).

>>11436 Have you talked to a doctor about it? Do any of the go-to sleeping habits help? Like reducing screen time before bed, exercising, what have you.

>>11338 I used to smoke alot and also like alcohol alot. Though due to like, health issues and well my partner i stopped smoking entirely! i used to snap off the filters off malboro reds tho...

>>11420 i could never snap off the filters of ciggies im too much of a pussy

>>11421 Yeah it's kinda disgusting I will admit! I used to like smoking filterless in general, but I never really bought a tar guard. I do kinda miss an early morning cigarette with a good black coffee.

i like mushrooms but only around summer time since the weather really alters my emotions in that state

>>11427 nice! I just picked up 7 grams to take over the next few months, my first time as well

>>11411 How did you manage that Hikarin?

>>11412 its because i was born like that, but the dentist said other than that my teeth are all perfect and beautiful

>barneyfag shit

I hope you get your tooths sorted out hikarin. Was it a wisdom tooth? I hear they can grow in weird ways like that.

>>1786 i have been on the prowl for some good irc channels as well, i have found some good channels on i2p but non are alive per-se.

to what? hit nails? no that would be dumb

>>11224 which head?

I use my head as a basketball.

>>11228 Shota Ameri-kun is sooo kawaii desu!!! Is there porn of him?

>>11228

High-effort funpost

Cute cirno

such a cutie patalouli

This is awesome anon

Is this modern art?

so deep

kawaii

OMGG!!!!I LOVE MINKY MOMOOOOO

looks awesome, is she flipping me off?

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